I am sure many of you have felt that you were so behind in life and things were just not happening according to your time line. You don’t understand why you are still not married or why you still don’t have that dream job or why you are still struggling through life, yet you have prayed and fasted more times than you can remember.
I used to be in that position myself, where I felt that I was not God’s favorite and I just had to sit on the sidelines and watch other people live their lives. I also thought that I probably deserved what was happening to me because of my past sins.
My mindset only changed when I began to understand that God’s timing is not our timing. To God 1000 days is like a day. He never changes, no matter how much we have sinned, he loves us and only wants the best for us.
My life has changed so much over the past year and a half. I remember being depressed, feeling oppressed, having to take care of my two children, struggling and barely getting by financially. After praying and fasting about it, I eventually had to make a life changing decision. That meant quitting my job, leaving my home, my friends and all the material comforts I was used to. It meant starting anew with nothing. All I had was my faith and trust in God that he would take care of us.
I must say it wasn’t easy. Life was hard and trusting God was a daily commitment. I would read my Bible every day and remind myself of God’s promises. Two scriptures I always found comfort in were Jeremiah 29:11
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”
As well as the whole of Psalm 23.
Having a friend to share my struggles with also helped as she always encouraged me and prayed and fasted with me often.
Towards the end of 2018, I prayed to God to give me a word for 2019 and I got Amos 9:13-15 (MSG)
“Things are going to happen so fast your head will swim, one thing fast on the heels of the other. You won’t be able to keep up. Everything will be happening at once—and everywhere you look, blessings! Blessings like wine pouring off the mountains and hills…”
This became my anchor scripture. Fast forward to today, each and every prayer request of mine has been answered. I am living my dreams, “dreaming wide awake” as I would like to coin it.
I was awarded a Doctoral scholarship to conduct research on women empowerment, a topic that is very close to my heart. I got the dream job that I have always prayed for, which is empowering women and having a positive impact, I get to travel the world something I have always dreamed of.
As I am writing this, I am on holiday in Bali with a few friends and through God’s provision I am now able to take care of my children.
I just want to encourage someone to have trust in God for he is faithful. Never give up. Trust in his timing for he is never late. As Isaiah 60:22 says:
“When the time is right, I the Lord will make it happen”